You are forever in my heart Abu

From past few days I have been missing my father a lot or  should i say I that I am missing him more and more after every passing year….Allah knows how many years but I just have stopped counting the years that I have lived without my father..It’s a terrible feeling, even worse when I think that why he did not live much enough to see his children’s success and his grand children, his son in law, daughter in laws all the new relationships… I miss him more when I see my daughter’s love for her baba…for her, her dad is a hero, for me ,my dad will always be a hero.

I wish I could walk to the Heaven and bring you back home ABU…I just hope... one day
I will see you again.

My handsome father was diagnosed with the kidney problem…he went on dialysis for two years, but he was always thinking about the needs of his children 5 sons and a daughter and all very young not capable of helping him, I have seen him as a fighter, a long fight with his disease …but finally he left us all alone on 24^th December.

I hope you can listen and see me abu,I hope that you are getting hugs and kisses and prayers that I am sending your way every day..i know that you are in a better place but all that I know is that you are not with me ,and I want to see you and hug you and tell you that much I love you.

Sleep well Abu and take care of all those who went before and after you.

Forever in my heart 

Missing You Mansoor

As I mentioned in my earlier blog that I have experienced the state of loneliness too with the beginning of cold December…First time in more than 10 years of our married life ALHUMDULLIAH  I have lived without Mansoor for almost a month….he is sooo busy in his new project and living in Ramadha Hotel Karachi …we are in same city but still in no contact…initially I was so busy too in my events but after a few days I started feeling like a part of me is missing …Mahnoor loves her father and sad too..but Nukhari kit u Nhakra ki.

I keep myself busy with things to do, but every time I pause, I still think of you

We went to meet him and stayed for two days but he was seldom present….but poor him tried his best to keep us entertained in one room by sending various stuffs…But yes we thoroughly  enjoyed the yummy food of hotel, no wonder I am gaining so much weight.

 There is one more thing that I have realized and got to know about myself  and that is i have become so choosy in selecting my ward robe …usually I wear a lot of western but now I don’t feel comfortable at least till Mansoor is not around...amazed I am.

Looking forward for this weekend as Mansoor might call me and Mahnoor for a stay again. I am missing you Mansoor.

Bless you all!

Bismillah and birthday celebration of Ahsan and Mahnoor

Bismillah Celebration of Ahsan and Mahnoor.

DECEMBER has come with so many new things for us specially me …..I have experienced a state of loneliness and happiness altogether..the month started off with the party preparation that I planned in my father in law’s life (May his soul rest in peace) as I always wanted  that my daughter’s Dada (grand father) will do the Bismillah  (starting of HOLY QURAN) but I got late in planning because of his illness as well as my engagements with my business ….any way this time I had to do it because my best brother as I mentioned before is leaving for good from Pakistan with his family So I chose7^th December for the celebration as it is also the DOB of my nephew Ahsan <3  and I wanted it to be the memorable one for him as well as for us…so Bismillah was due of both kiddos and I decided to do it on the same date i.e. 7^th December 2012….With the great support of my husband and friend Irum the event went so successful …every body loved the celebration ..although it was a home based party but I hired a professional photographer to get the best clicks of us all and kids and I got the Banner made with kids pictures on it…I WAS SOOO HAPPY and I guess every body wasJ .Moomal my sister in law helped in bringing up palau and chicken karahi…yummy yummy…the menu also includes Achar ghost,Haleem,khatti bhari bhindi,custard,cake cupkaes etc….so delicious .

My mother in law did the bismillah of both kids and then Ahsan and Mahnoor cut the cakes….the most adorable kids in this world for me..May Allah always bless them with all the happiness in life and hereafter.ameen

Zindagi Khak na thee

Zindagi Khaak Na Thi Khaak Ura Kay Guzri
Tujh Say Kiya Kehtay Teray Paas Jo Aatay Guzri

Din Jo Guzra Tu Kisi Yaad Ki Ro Mai Guzra
Shaam Aayi Tu Koi Khuwaab Dikhatay Guzri

Tujh Say Kiya Kehtay Teray Paas Jo Aatay Guzri
Acchay Waqton Ki Tamanna Mai Rahi Umar-e-Rawaan

Waqt Aisa Tha Kay Bus Naaz Uthatay Guzri
Tujh Say Kiya Kehtay Teray Paas Jo Aatay Guzri

Zindagi jis kay muqadar mein hoon khusiyaan teri

Us ko aata hai nibhana,so nibhatey guzri

Raat Kiya Aayi Kay Tanhayi Kay Sargoshi Mai
Ghum Ka Aalam Tha Magar Suntay Sunatay Guzri

Barha choonk si jhati hai musafat dil ki

Kis ki awaz thee yeah kis ko bulatey guzri

Tujh Say Kiya Kehtay Teray Paas Jo Aatay Guzri

Fun Week

Hey all…did I tell you that my favourite tea mug is been broken 2 weeks back by my maid L? and since that day I have been looking for an exclusive mug for me …I searched Sunday Markets, different shops, even searched on-line but there is not a single one that I can like…so if anybody of you out there see any different mug ..Do let me know till then I have to bear this usual ones.

Quite a busy and fun week it was…had a big event on 20^th November  which went really well then on 22^nd November was Mansoor’s birthday, I wanted to surprise him so after picking Mahnoor from school we took the cake to Mansoor’s office…he was happy (I think so …but did not show much) Mahnoor was as usual centre of attraction for everybody she played with her favourite Chachu in off (Mansoor’s friend ) but Mahnoor calls him FUNNY MAN ….yea sure he is :0.

We were not able to take any decision that should we go out for dinner? because of the uncertainty in the city so finally we decided to stay nearby and went to Arizona Grill at Zamzama  along with Ammi and Faisal too…Good time …enjoyed.

And then we had this LOOOONG weekend because of Ashura ,these holidays were so much needed as we finished  all the pending works at home…Played so much with Mahnoor, did all the cleaning .cooked yummy foods, and of course slept longer than usual J here is the picture of my baby

 Now I have to rush in Kitchen cook something for my little princess…see ya soon

Happy New Week J

Few minutes from a busy day.

Hi here I am again after a very hectic day, looking forward to take out 2 hours so that I can take my child to some fun..seeing her happy and having fun always relaxed me more than anything …these days I am so busy Alhumdullilah Meknoor is working very well …Mansoor is equally busy too but I am so blessed that he manages to take out time to help me in my work .some of the very recent work that we have done are wedding stages, themed birthday parties, US CG musical evening and now working on US CG festival ,meetings going on for upcoming events too.

Oh wow just now my maid has given me a cup of tea …God knows what would i do if there will no tea in the world.

There is a long list of work that has to be done in November I hope by the time I will write my next blog at least few of the things would be done..the most important one is registration of Mahnoor’s school for grade 1 and then my minor operation of gall bladder at least I have to take appointment for that..have to get a nice present for Mansoor for his Birthday that is coming on 22nd of this month.

Today is the last episode of one of my favourite play SHER-E-ZAAT I am excited for that.. Mahnoor is up and now I have to take her out to some fun…its already 5pm..OG its going to be dark soon and I hate driving in dark..God bless

Happy Friday All!

AT BUNNY’S HOUSE

After a rich breakfast with 2 fried eggs and a hot cup of tea i am all set to share my last day at Bunny’s house …Bunny??? He is my brother and I a have come to stay at his place after a long time reason being I usually don’t get enough time to spend with them now  as I used to spend before …but I usually send Mahnoor to stay because she adores her  Mammon’s family a lot..i took this decision to stay in middle of week because  I wanted to have the quality time with them before they leave for abroad…My heart aches when I think about them leaving and it’s a very sad topic for me….Only I know that It will be a big change in life.

Bunny picked me at 4:30 pm and I reached at his place by 5pm,had a cup of tea served with delicious cake, chatting  with bunny about future plans and I love the way he was thinking for me and guiding me on so many things ..Then he took us to Dolmen Mall.. kids favourite place..It was quite relaxing after bunny put the kids to sleep..We had a great session of gossips with each other means Moomal  (sister –in-law)her mother (she is a sweet heart)and me ..We were in middle of gossip session when Ahsan my nephew woke up and we all went to sleep with kids.

Life is in a constant state of change and I am trying my best to adjust …as I am here I am thinking Allah knows better if I am going to have this quality time with Bunny, Moomal and Ahsan  again?When will I be able to see the shiny twinkling eyes of Ahsan ? What will I tell Mahnoor where is her favorite family gone? it will not be easy to just call Moomal and tell her last day stories ,telling her who did what and why..When will I get the chance to hug my brother and make braid of his long thick hair like I did when he visited my place last Sunday.. (Don’t get confuse, yes I am talking about my brother’s long hair ;)). Nothing will be the same..Everybody has to move, I pray my Allah who is biggest of all that May He bless my brother’s family with all the success and May they get the best in life..Ameen

It’s my believe that ALLAH plans better and best for all of us.

Stay Kind :)

Yaad-e-Maazi….(Remembrance of my Past)

As I sat down with hot cup of tea in my favourite mug I was trying to relate myself with this beautiful post

“”Never let your past experiences harm your future…..

Your past can’t be altered and your future does not deserve the punishment.””

Past … sigh!

I believe that there is not only one past in anybody’s life at least not in my case… I've had three pasts … one was ‘my childhood’… it was so beautiful with my family especially with my Father a real hero of my life... The fun with my childhood friends…. Laadli of my five brothers (Favorited sis… they didn't have much choice as I was the only sister J ), no financial worries never thought how my parents are surviving with 6 children and also fighting with Dad’s illness… everything seemed so perfect… My father loved me so much that those 11 years with him seemed as if I have to talk about 100 years with Him.  He was a strict father for my 5 brothers but so different for me…. My daughter’s father does a lot for her but it still seems less to me for her as I have experienced the best of the best.. Alhumdulliha..!!!

My second Past after I lost my Father and there came big role of my Maamun (maternal uncle) without whose support I would not be able to become what I am today …I have experienced so much in this era of my past sometimes I really feel like going back and alter all those things that had been done wrong…there were so many people who deserved my slap and those who justify much love then I had given them… But nothing can be altered as I never had any Magic Wand and will never have… anyhow, I feel blessed for all that Allah has given me….these experiences are really helping me in the upbringing of my child.

My third Past that is the ten years of my married-life with the most loveable and adorable husband one could ask for and very sweet Parents-in-Law..

 Though I had experience the best life recently but has also faced bitter truths too..

But my second past experiences were of no use here....My heart bleeds when I think about the mistakes i(WE) made in our marriage life.

My experiences in the second and third [recent] pasts will help me make a better future for my daughter and she will not suffer the punishment of our past experiences with the help of Allah…

Ameen

Stay Happy!

Meri Jannat (My Paradise)

I have been thinking about writing blogs since many days and there was so much to write on… you know every thought is a Blog…;). I find writing blog more interesting then sharing my thoughts on social networking sites.

First everybody should know who am I? As Frederick Perls quote defines… that is what I exactly think now….

“I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped”…

So this is Amna Mansoor sharing a small Jannat (Paradise) with my Husband and a Light of our life Mahnoor our daughter.. and you might know that I can write so much on her… but Hello.. Today its only about ME …

I run a business of event planning with my friend Irum by name of Meknoor Events… (so much to tell about Meknoor too in upcoming blogsJ) and we love our work.

My interests are very simple watching TV plays apart from that I usually don’t get time to watch them L…

I love talking to my husband I have to tell him everything asa he gets back home from office…and I look forward for that time <3

I love listening to my favourite music when I am driving and my best company is my daughter who shares the same interest though she is only 4.7 years old...

I am a strong woman…yes I am J and I love this part of me.

My favourite topic is to discuss about future which nobody has seen but I can’t help it… I love to do that and I can talk so much on it …I am a dreamer.

This is a small introduction about me… while raping up here in the end I would like to share one more thing that I have a small world around me I am truly Blessed by Allah who is always there whenever I have needed Him ..

The people I love the most will find a lot of space in my posts like my adorable nephew Ahsan who is as much close to my heart as my daughter is.

Stay Blessed…!!