Yaad-e-Maazi….(Remembrance of my Past)

As I sat down with hot cup of tea in my favourite mug I was trying to relate myself with this beautiful post

“”Never let your past experiences harm your future…..

Your past can’t be altered and your future does not deserve the punishment.””

Past … sigh!

I believe that there is not only one past in anybody’s life at least not in my case… I've had three pasts … one was ‘my childhood’… it was so beautiful with my family especially with my Father a real hero of my life... The fun with my childhood friends…. Laadli of my five brothers (Favorited sis… they didn't have much choice as I was the only sister J ), no financial worries never thought how my parents are surviving with 6 children and also fighting with Dad’s illness… everything seemed so perfect… My father loved me so much that those 11 years with him seemed as if I have to talk about 100 years with Him.  He was a strict father for my 5 brothers but so different for me…. My daughter’s father does a lot for her but it still seems less to me for her as I have experienced the best of the best.. Alhumdulliha..!!!

My second Past after I lost my Father and there came big role of my Maamun (maternal uncle) without whose support I would not be able to become what I am today …I have experienced so much in this era of my past sometimes I really feel like going back and alter all those things that had been done wrong…there were so many people who deserved my slap and those who justify much love then I had given them… But nothing can be altered as I never had any Magic Wand and will never have… anyhow, I feel blessed for all that Allah has given me….these experiences are really helping me in the upbringing of my child.

My third Past that is the ten years of my married-life with the most loveable and adorable husband one could ask for and very sweet Parents-in-Law..

 Though I had experience the best life recently but has also faced bitter truths too..

But my second past experiences were of no use here....My heart bleeds when I think about the mistakes i(WE) made in our marriage life.

My experiences in the second and third [recent] pasts will help me make a better future for my daughter and she will not suffer the punishment of our past experiences with the help of Allah…

Ameen

Stay Happy!